Losing it....

the last two trips that I worked were rather uneventful...my first trip to Hawaii was very crazy and hectic...never had so many demanding passengers on such a long flight! I figure it must be since they are on vacation or something...but still!! The layover just consisted of me walking aimlessly around the mall nearby and getting some food to bring back to my room and eat. I had a long conversation which left me in a weird state...like I wasn't sure whether I wanted to cry, yell, or kick someone...so I just did nothing...and held everything in again...why do I keep doing this to myself?

The trip back was a little bit better...except we had a lady towards the end of the flight faint in the back galley and who happened to be right there next to her....ME...again...argh....this happened on my flight to London....where the last passenger actually fell on top of me and another flight attendant...this time...the lady happened to be right by the 4R door where I was and just slumped down so I quickly maneuvered her into the jumpseat so she would not fall right onto the floor...but she was literally dead weight...so she slumped out of the chair and I could not hold her up on my own....had to get the other flight attendants to drag her down and lay her on the ground...had another one page for some medical assistance and contact the captain...4 doctors came to the back to assist which was nice...apparently the passenger had peed on herself...she was conscious but really out of it...we found out that she was traveling with others...her brother came to the back to provide information...it was recommended by the doctors that they go to the hospital immediately after landing...when we landed the brother refused and took her home instead...I felt really bad for her...she had no say because she had passed out again...but if a doctor is telling you to go to the hospital shouldn't you go? Hope everything is okay with her...

Shanghai flight...it was okay going there...I worked up in Business...it was the going back that was insane...I had to work Coach back and the people were so demanding! I wanted to kick a few because they were so rude and nasty...argh...this was the only one that I have been on where I felt the people were just so inconsiderate and using the call light button no limit...that is for emergency purposes...but ppl will be ringing it for all kinds of stuff...even during turbulence when we are suppose to be seated as well...arghhh

I dunno if it was the combination of these two exhausting flights that made me feel like I was almost losing it...but I got home...did not feel like turning my phone on....came home...had a good cry and then fell asleep...maybe it was exhaustion and the constant demands of passengers that got to me...I dunno...usually I can hold it in and be okay...but this was too much...needed some alone time...this was also my first flight where I felt really sick up in the air that I threw up...that has never happened before...I'm thinking it was the stress that made me not digest well and well...it just all came back up... :( sigh...the mandarin speakers were fun to fly with...it was the senior mama's...omg...they really should not be flying anymore...a lot of them don't do their jobs and it's so annoying to have to do their job for them as well...arghh! Don't get me wrong...some of them do their jobs and I enjoy working with those...but the others... *shudders* they are nightmares! I really felt like I was about to lose it a few times on the flight and it took a lot of will power to hold myself in check...

going back again on the 12th...with Kat...hopefully it will be better this time...