What defines Happiness?

What makes me happy? i have no clue anymore...i'm tired of ppl saying they want for me to be happy, do what makes me happy, they only want me to be happy, etc....arghhhh

if i knew i would not be so miserable right? if i was happy then i would not feel miserable or depressed...there are times that i think i might be happy...but then i feel like i got cheated...that i really am not happy...argh...what to do?

what used to make me happy? i used to be so carefree...but life really does take a heavy toll on things...sigh...

i kind of live life wandering through it now...no real set goals or motivation to want to do anything...that is bad huh...

i feel my life ending soon... :(